Decisions, Decisions

Life is all about making decisions. Some decisions are easy to make while some decisions are extremely hard to make, leading to second-guessing and questioning the decision once it has in deed been made.

In March, I had a decision that I needed to make. Whether I was going to come back to Chevak for another year. I knew that I was going to be faced with this decision sooner or later, so I started thinking about it at the beginning of the year.

It would have been very easy for me to say, “Yes, I can definitely do another year here.” But I didn’t want to be stuck with the second-guessing feelings that would have been associated with a quick decision. While I was definitely leaning towards making that quick decision, I wanted to make sure that I was making the right decision.

I was thankful that I had to two friends that I was able to talk to about this decision and a family that was going to support me regardless of the decision that I made. So, I talked to my friends about my options, they suggested that I were to seriously sit down and consider the pros and cons of staying here.

There were many points for both sides, I have missed my family this whole year, and I missed the simple pleasures of being able to go to the movies or go to a restaurant, I knew that I eventually want to get a job closer to home, but was it time to start that journey? I loved all the kids that I got to know and teach this year, I could have the opportunity to move up with my kiddos to first grade, I would be able to watch my junior class graduate, I wouldn’t be another person that would walk away, and both lists could go on.

So, when contracts came out I made the quick decision and signed it. I was still torn with what to do (I guess that sometimes it only makes sense to make things difficult for ourselves). Basically, I knew that since I signed it, I was going to be “stuck” with this decision.

Ever since then, there have been certain instances where I have been shown that I made the right decision. I’m excited that I’ll be here for another year. It looks like I’ll get to move up to first grade with my kiddos, I’ll get to see my junior class graduate, I’ll get to make an impact for another year.

I’ve also made some other decisions recently:

·      I am going to be going back to school. I want to get a Master’s in counseling.

·      I am going to become more involved with the culture here in Chevak.

·      I am going to make my own Kuspuk.

Sometimes decisions are the hardest thing in the world, but it’s good to know that whatever decision is made the Lord is leading the path! : )